I´ll be back soon *Ü*

With my new attitude towards life, my inner feeling to follow my dreams begins to grow more and more. I want to be creative for profession.. that´s what I wanted all my life. Few years ago, I already started with registering a business.. but never came far.. it was halfheartly, I always had an excuse.. family came first..
I learned, that this attitude is wrong. Yes, family is important! But to be balanced and a good mother/wife also means to be selfish to a certain point! I have to be satisfied with myself.

So, my plan is to reactivate my business. I will renovate my office (which is the family chaos room at the moment) to have a room just for me, to be creative, to paint and sew and all that stuff. I also need to arrange a timetable to have 2-3 days a week for my business. I know, it will be hard work.. but I CAN DO IT!

Last week, I worked off a debt. A while back we promised Jessica to redo her room. Since she´s a big girl now, she didn´t like the cute toddler wallpaper anymore (O-Ton Jessi: Ich will kein Tierchen-Zimmer mehr!). I refused to paint her room pink, since Angelina´s room is already a pink paradise My girls favorite colors are pink and purple, so we agreed Jessica´s room would be purple!
So I redid her room – all by myself! What a work when it´s 30°C outside! Took me a whole week, but the result is great! I still have to paint a few decorations and add drapes and stuff, but it´s looking nice! I already tried to make some pics, but purple is so tricky to shoot! So I´ll try again once everything is done

Only few people knew that I´ve been struggling with depression half of my life. There were times when I felt ok but there were also times when I found myself being caught in a black hole. I knew I could not get my life back into order all by myself. I needed help! Immediately! I did not want to take any pills and drugs, just to feel better for a short time. I had the desire to lay down all burdens and sorrows and start a new life as a strong person!

I found what I´ve been looking for! With the help of my husbands uncle, who is an amazing person.. and an alternative practitioner and hypnotherapist. I had a couple of hypnosis sessions this week starting to find the cause for all my problems. Being under hypnosis is a strange feeling.. everything is so real.. it was hard work, but when we found the cause, I felt that a big burden fell off my shoulders.. everything now seemed clear and easy. With every session I felt stronger and stronger.. my whole attitude towards life has changed! Amazing!

Now I´m looking forward to the next weeks.. and months.. and years.. dreams come true and life is full of possibilities!

2 weeks ago I slipped down the stairs and severly bruised my tailbone. I thought, I´d skip going to the doctors as they don´t do anything – even if it´s broken. It hurts ALOT, especially when I get up from sitting or when I sit down. I hope it get´s better quickly as I feel like an old woman.. LOL

I´m just so happy that summer is right around the corner and I can lay down and relax in my garden! If it only would be a bit warmer! My flowers and plants slowly start to grow.. It´s so wonderful to notice how the season´s changing.. We picked our first strawberries and radishes.. planted a new bush of roses.. beuatiful!

Here a few snap shots of the crafts I did lately. The wooden plant pokes were a gift I made for my mom´s birthday, pattern by Plum Purdy. The snail is crocheted, isn´t it the cutest snail ever? It´s a pattern by GourmetAmigurumi.

Until then

When the girls were away at the birthday party of their kindergarten buddie last Tuesday, I started sewing this cute lil doll. It´s a pattern by Threadbare Primitives. I decided not to make it too grungy.. and so it perfectly fits in Angelina´s pink girly room! Jessi already ordered another one for her room too.. LOL

Have a great weekend everyone!